Tuesday, December 21, 2010

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Vikarion > Mr. Hakatain?

Stitcher > Good morning, Vikarion

Vikarion > Good morning.

Vikarion > I've heard a few rumors going around, and I saw that our little "project" was leaked. I never did hear about what happened with that after I gave Ixiris the components from my Phantasm

Vikarion > I was wondering exactly what happened, and what the consequences were?

Stitcher > discontinued as non-viable. the IFF implants turned out to contain failsafes that ensured that they wouldn't boot unless the brain they were implanted in was fully alive and conscious

Vikarion > So there were no consequences to the revelation?

Stitcher > None pertaining to the Incursions, no. The True Slave was given a funeral and cremation.

Stitcher > the project was closed. You should have found the parts from your Phantasm were returned to your staff for storage or reintegration

Vikarion > I see. Interesting. And no worries, there.

Vikarion > I've also heard through the grapevine that you've been talking with Miss Roth. Is she well?
Stitcher > She's expecting twins, and quite looking forward to meeting them

Vikarion > That's wonderful.

Vikarion > How did she react to your involvement in the project?

Stitcher > She... didn't take it well, but I don't think she hates me too much, considering I was round her place the other night.

Stitcher > Camille's been learning Tastoitsu and I sparred with her, for instructional purposes

Vikarion > I rather suspected. I've been trying to find a way to tell her I'm sorry, but it's difficult to convey my sincerity, or even if I should try

Stitcher > I had a hell of a job convincing Amieta to let me talk to her.

Stitcher > And no offense, but I've not quite made the same blunder you once did. She was ice cold with me, I think you'd be in danger of frostbite.

Vikarion > Amieta? I don't think Amieta would be my problem.

Stitcher > She sees herself as Cia's protector

Stitcher > and with that attitude and those arms, you can't really argue
Vikarion > Hmm.

Vikarion > What would you do, in my position?

Vikarion > Ignoring the problem is not in my nature

Stitcher > I tell you what, how about I contact Commander Invelen and discuss the matter with her. She might be marginally less hostile to the idea if it comes from me.

Stitcher > No promises though, I can't imagine the suggestion would be too popular with her even under ideal circumstances

Vikarion > Please don't do that.

Vikarion > I think it would be better to handle the problem with the party involved.

Stitcher > I'm not about to take it to Cia

Vikarion > I think I should simply write her a letter of apology

Vikarion > She can take it from there, if she wants to contact me.

Vikarion > What do you think?

Stitcher > my very strong recommendation is that you contact Commander Invelen first

Vikarion > I see. Well, thank you for your advice.

Stitcher > for the simple reason that if you go behind her back, she'd quite likely be out to rip your arms off

Vikarion > Oh, she's had that attitude towards me pretty much ever since she's known me, I'm afraid.

Stitcher > right, right. Not a good idea to make it worse then

Vikarion > Indeed.

Vikarion > On the other hand, if that is the case, there is no point to the effort at all.

Stitcher > well, you either come up against an unreceptive but not unreasonable guardian

Stitcher > or you REALLY piss her off.

Stitcher > look, Ami was furious with me immediately after the release, but she got over it

Stitcher > and for all you know, she may be filtering Cia's messages

Vikarion > That's true

Vikarion > Well, I will do as you suggest.

Stitcher > probably for the best

Vikarion > She was never caught up in the Sansha thing as much as I was, and we were never that deep.

Vikarion > But I can see her blaming herself for it. She blamed herself for quite a few things while she was still at White Rose.

Vikarion > Thank you for your help, Mr. Hakatain

Stitcher > you're welcome.

Vikarion > Uaaka


Monday, December 6, 2010

Well now, it's been a while.

After all those accounts of hackings on the IGS, I scrubbed my account. It was the right thing to do, I suppose, not letting everyone see how close I came to the edge of Sansha-dom. But then, I've told quite a few people anyway.

It's all the cluster is talking about now - the Sansha, the invasions, the abductions. And yes, they are serious. I do worry. But I took a few months off to get my family packed off to a deadspace area, and, really, what more can I do?

I'm reluctant to get involved, not merely because others might suspect I'm still on the wrong side, but also because of all the rather, well, wrong I did. Because of my actions, I nearly destroyed myself, I caused the death of someone I loved, and I aided enemies of mankind. Not to mention harming Ciarente, mutilating Fisk, and perhaps there are things I don't remember.

Memory therapy can suppress those things that aren't mine, but it can't bring back the pieces I lost. I should be grateful the the damage is as little as it is.

I miss LDIS, but I realize that I wasn't able to give them the consistent dedication needed. Hopefully the investments I left behind will be...useful. I don't think I'll ask for anything back. In the end, it's just ISK, and I'd rather have the friendships and contacts I made.